The story of my life

I just want everything back

My life, my dad, my family

I want to be able to hang with my friends

Without worrying that someone is gonna flip out

I want to be able to sing and dance with no care in this world

I have gone through so much these past 6 months

Hospitals, lying, cheating, being yelled at, crying, screaming, losing sleep at night

I'll never be complete again

I'll never be able to forget

Never able to fully trust a person

Its so hard to go on living life like this

But everyone tells me it'll get better

But it wont it'll just get worse

Eventually I'll lose everything

But if I lose him I'm done

I've lost my dad, my mom, my best friend

I've lost myself

Even though I'm still here with my mom

It"s not the same

She always gets mad at me

Yells at me for being upset

Well I'm sorry I'M NOT PERFECT

I get upset I cry I scream I fight for my dreams

I dint let people take advantage of me

My dad just dint care

Pushing me around, calling me names, yelling at me

Wat a great family I have

No role model

I have to form myself

No help from anyone else

All I know is it Ingunna be easy

My heads spinning

I know they say that end is just a new beginning

But for me its a tragic end

A slow beginning

Thats never gonna come

It takes months to clear some one out of your head

But it takes eternity to clear someone out of your heart

Even if they did hurt you

But when i wake up

I do think oh I didn't die

So I live like this is my last day

But still why be happy all the time when your not

Why hide your pain

If they yell at you about it they must not really care

And what Ive found out is your pets or stuffed animals become your best friend

They dint steal your crush, dint back stab you, and dint talk back

No leaving my dogs and losing my best friend

I realize its harder to do things by yourself

I'm hanging on a string which at the end is him

The one keeping me here with the help of him and God

I can do this

But I have my doubts but who doesn't

But this is only a short chapter of my long story