Out Of My Hands

I don't understand how everything fell through so fast
How everything so easily slipped from my grasp.
Lies, deceit, and pain beyond words
Reason and hope gone like frightened birds.
Falling with my broken wings
My inner demons rejoice and sing.
I'm back to where I was before
Torn and bleeding on the floor.
I don't know how to let it go,
Don't know how to staunch the flow.
I see no way out,
Surrounded by everyone's doubt.
Time and time again I've fixed myself
Clawed my way out of this self contained hell
Fire raging, brimstone burning,
The ache of my unfulfilled yearning.
What's broken once is never whole again
Testament by the fresh scars on my unmarked skin.
Walking alone on this burning sand
My redemption is out of my hands.