What i discovered today

Today i realised something
that im afraid to say,
i need to get it out somehow,
to cut the guilt away,

I don't know why i'm feeling this
I don't know why you care,
you never owed me anything
never promised to be there,

I don't know how im saying this
its scary just to write
but the worst part of everyday
is when your calls are out of sight

the only time im happy,
is when i speak to you,
its not been very long at all
and i think im addicted to you,

Its like a shot of heroin,
a snort of crack cocaine
your voice is my choice of drug
to mask all my hearts pains.

I wish you were in love with me,
it would simplify my life,
and take away the craving,
i still feel for the knife.

I wont say i'm in love with you,
its much too soon to say,
but i'm pretty sure im getting there
thats what i discovered today.