Finally happy...

And then there was nothing;
Everything vanished in thick air;
Every person far away in distance;
Every feeling faded away;

Just a shell without an purpose;
Heart destroyed from unrequited love;
Wrists carved from endless cuts;
Mind lost from deep depression.

Just a corpse in living mask;
Feelings hidden under fake smile;
Words lost from never ending hurt;
Tears always raining inside my mind.

But then I saw it so clearly;
I could hear it so perfectly;
I could feel it embracing me;
I welcome it as it closes in;

Sharp steel runs over my skin;
Clearing me of all my sin;
Crimson color painting me;
I think I`m able to let it be.

It draws closer any second;
It says I cannot escape;
I`m separated from this world;
By my bitter depression.

I will never find peace;
And in my eternal suffering;
I am finally happy...
For I am dead now...