Pen Won't Meet Paper

I thought I would write about you because I woke up missing you today
But when it came to putting pen to paper I couldn't word what I wanted to say

A million sentences queued up inside of my head
But a million sentences went on unsaid

Frustration took over an emotion I cannot abide
Desperately wanting to communicate these feelings inside

But the page remained empty as pen and paper refused to meet
I twisted and turned and rocked back in my seat

Until I gave up on writing about the hurt you made me feel
As in reality the memory of you has no appeal

So I screwed the paper into a ball with a grin
Threw it across the room and watched it fall into the bin

Like the saying goes there is a reason you didn't make to my now
And the truth is I've let go somehow

I have built myself a future of gold
I know that I am lucky I do not need to be told

So even though sometimes you cross my mind I know you are not the one for me
Someone else makes me feel special and a life with him is all I can see

And when I say I miss you I guess deep down that isn't true
Because when it came to it I chose a life without you

I just get curious at times about where you are going
But with that wordless ball of paper I know I am ok not knowing