Suicide Note

by LostWords   Sep 23, 2012


You win; I cannot handle it anymore, does that make you happy?
All determination and willpower to keep fighting is now gone.
Wishing I could spare some of you the torment that is ahead.

Occupying my life with apologies, for things that weren't my fault.
Do not think I killed myself because of you, you are worth no emotion.
It is what you wasted, what you have cost me nothing can replace.

My mind- always distorted- has reached the point of no return.
I wish for a farewell kiss, not from you, but from a .40 glock.
My neighbors will hear one gunshot, but to me it will whisper, "rest."

Suicide is not centered on weakness but on absolute power.
How many can grip a gun to their skull and pull the trigger.
A worthy expense for an unceasing agony, at least in my case.

Others wait for something to save them, something that doesn't exist.
For me I choose a lesser movement, just a squeeze of a finger.
I don't have a concern for you, as this .40 whispers in my ear.

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  • 11 years ago

    by Formidable Muse

    "Suicide is not centered on weakness but on absolute power.
    How many can grip a gun to their skull and pull the trigger.
    A worthy expense for an unceasing agony, at least in my case."

    ^^ I've been in this state of mind twice in my life, it seemed like a good idea at the time. Feeling power coursing through your veins of holding your fate in your hands. That when the deed is done, people might actually care. They would regret the way they treated you and would feel pain.

    But at the same time, it's such a selfish thing to do, a cowards way out. To take your life from people that do love and need you. Their is always other ways out that don't involve death.

    I hope you aren't struggling with this anymore, it's an awful thing to have to go through, especially alone. If you ever want to talk feel free to PM me (:

    Now that I'm done commenting on the situation, I thought the poem was good. It was very insightful for someone who wouldn't understand depression and the tolls it takes.
    5/5

    • 11 years ago

      by LostWords

      Thank you DeviousCharmer and MidNight Mystery.

      Formidable Muse, I appreciate what you had to say. I do struggle with this, more than I would like to admit. Thank you, I will keep that in mind.

  • 11 years ago

    by Burning Angel

    Wow, this was a deep poem. i love this so much! It was so easy to relate to this poem because we all want to commit suicide at some point in our life.. I love it!

  • 11 years ago

    by DeviousCharmer

    Beautiful yet sad

  • 11 years ago

    by Alanis

    I like this a lot.^^

    Suicide is not centered on weakness but on
    Absolute power
    How many can grip a gun to their skull and
    Pull the trigger
    A worthy expense for an unceasing agony, at least
    In my case
    This are my favourite lines. I read it a few time cuz
    It absolutly gripped me^^ I agree with this entirely
    5/5

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