I still love you i swear

Slowly breaking down
I look up at the clouds
and see nothing
Feel nothing, slowly but surely my heart is leaving my body
I look at you and see you smile
and i wonder if its just a disguise
or if our love was always lies
you tell me you still love me but its hard to see
because i can tell youve moved on fine without me

I look at you and remember
All the jokes
And all the laughter
You broke me to the very core
Its hurts to watch you smile because i want you to hurt like you hurt me
but i also want you to be happy
You tell me you still care
But when we were together you were never there
I still love you I swear
but ii just need some time to think
...about all the mistakes