Insecure

I lay on the ground, eyes bloodshot and wet,
My tears staining the hardwood floor with sorrow
It's so hard keeping my composure undamaged and let
Someone in; beyond my mask, beyond the smile
Where my anger screams at the wall
Where my dreams lie forlorn
From all the times I wished to fall
In love with the emptiness embracing my soul.
Could you find it best to love me
When no one else cared enough to try
Or would you realize that you're better off, lovely,
Hunting for less darkened skies?
I try so hard to tell you how I feel
But the words cannot bubble pass my lips
As if lava, burning my tongue, suffocating me in fear
With each and every soft kiss.
This care I have for you sizzles behind my ribs
Loudly pounding and I wonder if you hear it
As I move closer, listening to the caution whispering in my ear
You make me feel safe, like the harm could never touch me, like no tears
Could ever fall from my eyes as you wrap your arms around my waist.
Please forgive me, I am merely insecure
But when I am with you,
I know, perhaps against my mind's wishes, I am sure
That you, my queen, are truly
Amazing.