One Of Those Girls

I'm not the type of girl who wears
her heart on her sleeve, nor one of
those girls that takes comfort in her
friends when she is feeling down.
I've perfected the art of silence
you see; I bury my emotions deep
inside so that I know they are safe.
I hide feelings within myself and I
lock them away, knowing they will be
opened at only the rarest of occasioans.

However;
that doesn't mean that they
aren't there somewhere or that
I don't feel the way others do.
It doesn't mean I am deliberately
closing myself off and distancing
myself from you. And it certainly
doesn't mean that the way you
feel is unrequited.

What it means is that I've become
accustomed to keeping a safe
distance, from allowing words
to slip from my lips that may hurt
in the long term. That isn't to say
that I don't {want} to say them,
only that I find it difficult to do so.

I'm not your average type of girl,
I guess. I don't feel the need to
constantly reassure or be reassured
in return. But just because I don't
always tell you, doesn't mean these
feelings aren't real. It doesn't mean
I don't feel the way you are hoping
that I do-because, I do.

{I love you.}