Let the darkness flow

I am sitting here waiting in the depth of despair,
wondering how I will ever get from here to there.
I am in the darkest places in my heart and mind,
I keep looking but there is no light to find.
Feeling so much loss and sadness,
I am finally being driven to madness.
My darkest place where no light can exist,
maybe the darkness will flow out of my wrist.
No one can see how far I fell,
Locked so deep inside of my cell.
Wanting to break the lock and run free,
but my legs are not strong enough for me to flee.
I have no strength left to give,
and I am finding it so much harder to live.
I am Feeling so weak that I want to let go,
and let all of the darkness and pain flow.
I know there are so many people who really care,
and I just wish I could let them be there.
I feel unworthy of their love and affection,
but I am yearning for that connection.
I want to break my walls down and let them crumble,
but there is a voice in my head that will always mumble.
"You have lost so many you have cared for,
anyone else will leave you just as sore."
I cannot get out of my own head,
even though this is a feeling I dread.
I want to open my heart and let the light in,
and then finally I can say I win.
The overwhelming battle will come to an end,
when the pain and happiness finally blend.