Frequent thoughts in an anxious mind

by Dee   Mar 21, 2017


I got a concussion. I'm dying.
Is my leg turning purple? My heart isn't working.
No, I'm having a stroke. My left side is numb.
No wait, my right side is numb, the stroke must be on the other half of the brain.
My fingers are tingling. My legs are twitching.

I'm having a heart attack! My body is shaking.
I'm done, this is it, I've had a good life.
I'm dizzy, I'm sick. I'm gonna throw up.
My nerves are damaged. I have peripheral neuropathy.

Oh wait, I developed a lisp. My brain is bleeding.

I'm never going to get into grad school, have a career, have children. No one loves me.

Oh no, there's something caught in my throat. I'm choking, I can't breathe.
There's pressure in my chest. Heart attack.
Everything's tingling.

Do my toe nails look pale? I wonder if my circulation is working correctly.
My brain feels weird. Something's not right. Help! I'm dying.

I always knew I would die at a young age. I feel it.
When I go to sleep I'm going to drift off into death.

There's no afterlife. I'm going to die and that will be the end of me.

I have no talents and skills. I don't know what I want to do with my life. I'm a loser.

Do my hands feel cold? There's something wrong with my circulation.
I'm gonna pass out. Is it organ failure?
I have a hormonal imbalance. Adrenal cancer. I'm going to die.

I can't remember anything. Is this early set Alzheimer's? Dementia. Schizophrenia? Tumor? My brain isn't working right. Somethings wrong.

Something's wrong.
Something's wrong.
Something's wrong.

..........

Oh, I'm fine.

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  • 3 years ago

    by Mr. Darcy

    I liked to this fast paced poem. It read, as it should, like a chaotic mind full of nerosis. It certainly made me smile and made me realise, we all feel like this at times.

  • 7 years ago

    by Brenda

    I feel you really nailed having to deal with anxiety. Everything is wrong and nothing at all, well done-

    • 7 years ago

      by Dee

      Thanks for the positive feedback! It's nice to know other people can relate to this feeling

  • 7 years ago

    by Em

    I think you just nailed that!!

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