Boredom is becoming my biggest cross to bear.
It weighs heavy on me when no one is near.
I can no longer work or hardly get outside.
Facebook and TV cannot fully provide.
The stimulation I need to feel emotionally at ease.
I remember when a bottle and the pipe would help me relax.
and I begin to forget how they caused my collapse.
The battle continues after all these years.
I will never be out of the woods.
Of that I am clear.