I cannot believe in love

I cannot believe in love at first sight,
Because what is love?

Society tells us it’s butterflies in our stomachs.
A feeling so intense you cannot live without them,
Yet I see people everyday live without love.
What about the people who are so deep down
The rabbit hole that they cannot feel?

Then, you come home.
You see, I cannot believe in love at first sight
But I believe in the reality of soul mates.
Souls meant to be together, in some universe
And that bond cannot be unbroken.

You see, when I met you I was in a rave,
Dancing. High. Drunk. Young. Dumb.
I looked up at you dancing on the rafters,
And I felt home.

Home is never a stagnant place in your life
It moves; changes.
However when you find your soul mate,
It feels just like home should feel like.

It’s a rush of calm over a bouncing body.
A serenity so pure it overshadows all of your thoughts.
Even in the darkest depths of hell that is my mind
When I feel your heart skip a beat, my mind settles.

Because you are my home.
My peace.
My serenity.
My garden filled with lush greens and Lillie’s with music playing.

It’s always been you.
It will always be you.
You’re my home.
But no, I cannot say I loved you at first.