Celebrations

I don't think you should drive
And I begged for you to stay
But no, you didn't listen
Or you'd be here today

I waited for the hour
You said how long you'd take
I counted every minute
And still for you I wait

I thought that moment long
And impatient was my heart
How I was wishing seconds
Would flow quicker while we're apart

But you don't know the grief
Which my heart would feel
Instead I'm counting days
And still feeling so surreal

My memory is such a blur
But if I search I know there's pain
That's why I hide it there
Somewhere deep inside my brain

No, I refuse to listen
That's the reason why I wait
But please do come home soon
Before it becomes too late

Sometimes I hear a car
That pulls into our drive
And I start to get all hopeful
That you are still alive

But it's never you I see
When I open wide my door
Instead it's family and friends
Who I just all ignore

I just know you'll be back soon
You told me so that night
Even though you had been drinking
You promised you'd be alright