Calendar Countdown

Do you have a date which you always dread
It's not marked on the calendar but just in your head
A countdown exists when you get close
You cannot avoid it and nor can oppose

Nor can you pretend, it's just another day
Your emotions are real, and here they will stay
No matter how many, years have gone past
Your flag on this day, still flies at half-mast

When memories don't vanish, but remain crystal clear
Until reality hits, and still draws a tear
And all day you're silent, but inside you scream
When you're begging to wake up and told it's a dream

It's not time to move on, as so often you're told
By those who know all, while wearing blindfolds
How dare you tell me, what I should now feel
Act like my emotions, are just all surreal

You'll never get back, what you have lost
And each year that passes, still dearly costs
Because one day a year, will always replay
And for me it just happens, that this is today