Lost My Way

Be strong they say, you’re bound for great things
Learn to live each day, you’ll find your peace
But these nights are darker, now without pills, I don’t sleep anymore
The fight’s gotten harder, there’s no strength within me
You’re such an emotional guy, too emotional and weak
You’re a burden, an unwanted weight, their silent words speak
But how can I be strong, if I have to hide and I have to pretend
That I can handle it all, even the loss of you my friend
How much longer, how much farther do I have to go?
How much pain do I have to bear, just for it to finally show?
That I am just a wanderer, a wandering spirit so it seems
A fragile body and soul, withered heart and broken seams
Just hang in there and “Don't you dare give up, my guy”
What next do you have for me? Promises or another lie?
About what lies ahead and what the future holds?
Perhaps it’s how easier life gets? Then think about dreams we were sold.
I know I should be strong; I ought to be better,
But I hope by then you’d be proud of me if you get to read this letter
I hope the light in my nephew’s eyes shines brighter and they get it easy
I hope Pa looks back with tears in his eyes and he’s proud of me
Because I fought Pa, I’ve tried all I can but I keep falling
I don’t have the solutions, I can’t find my bearings
In this thing called life, on this lonely path that I walk
So forgive my weakness, and please overlook my flaws
For I have lost my faith Pa, and I have lost my way
What this is, I don’t know but I know these words are my own
And perhaps this is a cry of a plea, to help me find my way back home