Your space

You're laying there beside me
but it feels a million miles away,
I want so badly to reach out
but my pride keeps me away.

The words you calmly told me
echo inside my head,
I miss the warmth only you bring,
cause it's cold when I'm on my own.

You say that all you want is space
so I try to respect that,
I've apologized and owned my mistake
but it doesn't feel like its enough.

You say you can't bring yourself
to want to touch me like before
and I try to understand
but it just feels like more rejection.

Our love and our relationship
means the absolute most to me,
your feelings matter just as much
but it feels like you're just being cruel.

I'm trying to be understanding,
trying to offer the same compassion
but it feels like all you're doing
is throwing my attempts into my face.

You complain that you're just so stressed,
giving stupid solutions to fix it,
all I want to do is fix our issues
but I can't stop the waves of anger.

You're mad that I don't communicate
exactly how you want me to,
communicating terrifies me
but I try so hard for you.

Scared to be a bother,
still scared of being rejected,
you're completely entitled to your feelings
but right now...
this just proves my assumption.

Trying to show that I respect you
by giving the space that you insist,
crying quietly in frustration and hurt
cause there's nothing I can do.