My Life

I want my own life
Without you by my side
Where you don't have power
Or your stupid Pride

One where you can't throw me
Into some deep depression
Telling me how to act
And making my life your obsession

This is my life
This is the way I want to live
Stop holding onto me
Or I will never forget and forgive

I am not going to be perfect
I don't even want to try
Stop telling me I have to do better
And that I have no reason to cry

You don't understand me
Your expectations are too high
Because at the end of the day
All I want to do is die.

I stare at the knife
And I yearn for it more
I want to take it again
Holding back is a chore

I look at the bottle
Thinking of all the pills
And how if I took some
I could feel all the thrills

I tried to tell you
About these things
But you had nothing to say
You didn't care I might grow wings

You think I can't have problems
Because I'm too young
But there's so much stress
That I can't have fun

Do you want the solution
There are two from which to choose
You let me leave
Or my life I lose.