Adachi Control

This is my hell
Lucky me
I’m still alive and kicking
You’ll never tell
I’ll never see
What it was got you ticking

You gave me a grin
Set it free
You could see I needed fixing
Paper-thin
You’d agree
Couldn’t be seen to be mixing

Behind closed doors
Silently
The smell thick and revolting
Through the floors
Through me
Screaming and jolting

I count the days
Carefully
Like a clock that’s always ticking
In a haze
Partly me
Part of a grave you’ve been picking

Am I at the end
Finally
Why does the world keep going
People pretend
Not to hear me
Screaming, scared and knowing