Poisoned Creature

I lie in bed wondering why,

I'm still alive,

I hate myself so much,

Why can't I just die?

Cut open my arm,

To look inside,

All I see is a death farm,

In their it lies,

I touch and feel pain,

To see what I have lost,

Swirl it all up to gain,

The price my life has cost,

I've caused only suffering,

To those that trusted me,

Left them all hurting,

By not letting them be,

I'll take this knife,

Put it inside me,

Will I lose my life?

Soon then they will be free.