At the minute

Punching walls, pummling the bed, staring at the ceiling,
Crying all alone, shouting to myself, searching for a meaning.
Screaming, bleeding, loosing all feeling,
Smashing mirrors, kicking the door on which I'm leaning.

Cold, hated, sickened, distressed, misread,
Tired, cornered, confused, mslead,
Trapped, forgotton, abused, unsaid,
Sorry, guilty, conflicted, and dead.