I'm sorry

by Chloe   Aug 28, 2004


First of all,
I want to say I'm sorry,
for making you sad,
for making you worry.
It's not like
I want to be this way,
I want to be happy,
I want to be okay.
I'm sorry
that all my poems are sad,
but I have to write those feelings
I've always had.
What hurts me the most
is that boy who owns my heart,
he took it, held it,
and ripped it apart.
They all believe
my silly lies,
they can't see the emptiness
in my eyes.
No one knows me
as well as you do,
and I know that some of you
feel this way too.
All the depression,
I am no longer whole,
it's like a demon,
which I cannot control.
I hold onto my life
for everyone else,
because if it was up to me,
I'd end it myself.
They think I'm a happy,
thirteen year old girl,
but they don't see
how lost I'm in this world.
Everyone is hiding
who they truly are,
just remember that lies
will never take you far.
Yes, I do it,
I lie too,
but what the hell
do they expect me to do?
If I told them,
the honest truth,
they'd tell me to leave
and enjoy my youth.
So that's why
all this pain I hide,
i have built up a wall,
deep inside.
No one will ever
break that wall,
so continue to watch me
as I fall.
So I'm really sorry,
and that is not a lie,
I just want to say I'm sorry
for wanting to die.

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  • 18 years ago

    by LostHopesCrimsonTears

    awwww great poem!

  • 19 years ago

    by Joann

    i loved this poem...your doing a great job and your only thirteen...man i never thought about the things your thinking about until now...but just keep it up and stay alive at least to write...--joann

  • 19 years ago

    by ~*Snow queen~*

    THIS WAS A GREAT POEM!
    I LOVED IT. IT WAS WELL WRITTEN. I HOPE TO READ MORE IN THE FUTURE!

  • 19 years ago

    by Kimberley

    ur poem gave me goosebumps its wonderful and i can relate to its subject matter, u have an excellent style keep it up i look forward to reading more xxKimmixx

  • 19 years ago

    by Morgan

    i can totally relate. i just wanna tell everyone that im all better so they wont be so sick of my depression but then i realize i din choose to have it, it just happened and they'll have to deal with it just like i do. ur poem was beautiful. it really hit straight to my heart. great job.
    Morgan