To The One I Cannot Have

All my life I'd just assumed
That love would come my way.
I never thought of the complications,
The heartache, or the pain.
I never thought I'd have to fight
One of my friends for a guy.
Funny thing is...he has no idea
How I feel inside.
Even though they're not together now,
She loves him just the same.
I hate myself so much
For fixing them up in the first place.
Maybe I thought that by pushing them together,
I could also push away my love.
At first I thought that it would work,
Because at first he was just a crush.
But now it's grown into something more.
More than friendship, more than lust.
I am so confused....
Is this really happening?
Could I really be falling in love?
But if we were to get together
It would only cause others hurt.
Seeing the guy you love...love someone else,
Is the worst feeling in the world.

*please tell me what you think. I'm going through this right now and I'm really confused about what to do. I'd really appreciate your advice* thanx