Losing Her ...

-- This is a true poem, I'm losing someone who's acted as a mother to me for as long as I can remember. She used to just be my daycare provider, but then I got older, and didn't need one, but ever since, we've shared a special bond not many people understand. We've been through a lot together, and we understand each other so well. It's hard to believe everything that's happening.

She picked me up in the morning,
And we went out in her corvette,
Just like mother and daughter,
Top down seat back, picture perfect,

We decided to go to the mall,
And have lunch at some cafe,
I wasn't at all prepared,
For what I was to hear that day,

We were laughing and talking as always,
Wild stories and secrets untold,
But then her smile faded,
And I felt the air turn cold,

She said she noticed something different,
But I just turned my head,
Pretending it was nothing,
As if I didn't hear what she said,

Inside I felt the pain,
And I knew exactly what she meant,
I wanted to tell her everything,
But I still made no attempt,

I looked back at her face,
And far into her eyes,
Then she began speaking,
And stumbled as she tried,

"Katie, my heart is failing,
The same way as my dad's,
The doctors are concerned,
They say it's getting really bad,

They're counting down my days,
Hopeful for just another year,"
And a tear rolled down my cheek,
My whole body shook in fear,

"I don't know if I can tell my boys,
How do you tell them you might not be there?
To tell them it'll be okay,
When deep inside I'm so scared,

I felt the need to tell you,
Because I think of you as one of my own,
You're the daughter I never had,
Without you I'd feel so alone,"

At this time my mind turned black,
I closed my eyes so tight,
I tried as hard as I could,
To fight back tears with all my might,

How could she say she's leaving me?
No, she wouldn't dare!!
I need her, she's my rock, my stone,
This sure as hell's not fair!

I love her as if she were family,
A mother, and a best friend,
There's no way I'll let her go,
I need her until the end,

She interrupted my thoughts,
And said, “Let's go for a ride,
Let's go anywhere, do anything,
As long as you're right by my side,”

And without hesitation,
I quickly grabbed her hand,
My eyes still filled with tears,
But expecting her demand,

We drove around for hours,
Feeling the wind against our skin,
Through all the pain and hurt we felt,
A happiness sparked within,

We‘re not prepared for a goodbye,
And both of us are scared,
But for the rest of the days to come,
We'll make the best of memories,
Only between us, not shared,

So when the time may come,
The only memories will be good,
And they'll forever live in my heart,
Exactly where they should.

** Its not very good, but its really hard for me to write about. I figured I'd give it a try.