My so-called mother

Dear my so called mother,
This is coming from the heart.
I'm almost about to burst in tears,
Because I don't know where to start.

Do you know how much you hurt me,
Picking a man over your child.
You ignored me for 13 years,
How did I ever survive.

In the past I had good times,
I've had some bad one's too.
You were never there to listen,
But a chapter in my life is through.

I even tried to talk to you,
About the times I was in love.
But you waved your hand to go away,
You were too busy with your son.

You always picked your favorite,
But guess what it wasn't me.
You always grounded your little girl,
Why weren't you proud of me.

I needed you more than ever,
When my best friend died.
I needed a shoulder to lean on,
But you just sat and watched me cry.

But mom I don't hate you,
In fact I hate myself.
If you cant love me who will,
I wish you were someone else.

*Not finished..