Always the Same

I am not a fool,
One to fall for other's games,
But no matter what I do,
I always end up the same.

I fall for all the guys,
Who aren't right for me,
The guys I get with,
Weren't meant to be.

Yet I fall for them all,
And I fall far,
And from each one,
I have an eternal scar.

You never know what's coming,
Until the day it strikes,
Then you can't believe,
That he was someone you really liked.

Why do I always,
End up this way,
With everyone telling me,
It'll be OK.

My heart is always stomped on,
With not a thought,
Of how I feel,
Or the love I sought.

Why do I feel this emptiness,
Where you used to be,
When I was loving you,
And you were right beside me?

My heart knows you're gone,
But I don't want to believe,
That you'd be this way,
That I was the one you deceived.

I'm trying to be OK,
And pretend like I don't care,
But what all I want,
Is you to be there.

Why is it so hard,
To move on?
Why have I loved you,
For oh-so-long?

[I am feeling this way so bad right now. Guys confuse me SO bad, but my Poetry is really helping me. I guess.]