How Painful Is This Feeling??

What did i gain or what did i lose,
why you are the only one left to choose,
why can't i just let you go as you did,
why am i still crying like a little kid.

Do you still think,i have to say you this,
you are the only one that i always miss,
can't you understand the love in my eyes,or
you will only realize when i reach the skies.

Why am i still giving you a place in my heart,
when all you have done is breaking it apart,
why do i still feel you are only that can save,
when you are the one pushing me into the grave.

If i am still alive,its only for you,
so that someday you could love me too,
i don't want to force you to fall in love,b'coz
then it wouldn't be as pure as the angel above.

Where you are,i thought there would be happiness,
how did i fail to realize that it was only sadness,
why did i take all your sadness in to my world,
when i already had them in my life two fold.

Love is not an easy path to walk through,
its the same everyone,including me and you,
Failures are not the end of this world,but-
in love,why is it so different from what i told.

How much pain can this little heart take,
you are the only one who can stop this ache,
I don't know when this pain will start healing,but
for now i have realized "How Painful Is This Feeling?".