The shadows are falling continuously
the rain is coming down as the shadow flows
sadness and anger are making my choices
they are controlling the way i feel and act
at first I thought they would go away
but when they were born into my life
I though they would just go away
I had a similar experience before
a feeling which stuck around, then disappeared
I have now pushed away from my friends and family
stayed locked in a dark room with my companion
my only friend, my true friend which pushes me to my limits
controlling me, telling me how i should act
i am too weak to ask for help
too weak to enter a different room
resting in my bed to gain energy
while dying from the trauma which i put my self through
constantly cold from the hot dry air
I am scared to not see another day
suffering from agonizing pain
the pain of starvation and death
terrified to regain energy
terrified to see what the scale will show
its a reoccurring cycle
a never ending dream
i want to give up but i don\\\'t know where start
spinning around by the trauma and pain
trying to figure out why I\\\'m terrified to gain
