Why?

The beginnings of my relationships are always beautiful, filled with happiness,
Then it all deteriorates to dust,
Our love becomes less & less,
We loose everything all the support & trust....

Every time i think its all ok it never works out,
It always ends in heart break,
I will always have my doubts,
When will i find the right person? I don't know how much more i can take....

My heart is filled with sadness, questions & lies,
How many more disappointments will i be able to get,
How many more tears, or how many more cries,
Which other relationships will end that i wont be able to forget.

As soon as i start looking up,
Things all crash down,
I think I'm going to start giving up,
& be lost in my own nothingness, no where to be found...

*comments please*