What to do?

To bleed again
to feel the pain,
to watch my life
flow down the drain.

To live my life
or to end it all,
to hang on tight
or let myself fall.

to do everything right
or make a mistake
to try and catch myself
or fall and break.

To wipe away
that one last tear,
to live in pain
or live in fear.

To smile again
and laugh, not cry
to tell you I'm happy
as you believe my lie.

To crawl back down
my deep black hole,
to let Satan take
back my soul.

To take your hand
as you save me again,
or leave you there
as you watch my life end.

So to bleed again
and feel no more pain,
or to stay right here
and go insane.

Someone help me
i need to know,
should i hold on tight
or just let go??