Tonight, I Take My Life

I stare up at the moon
In the lonesome, starless sky
And for reasons I don't know
My eyes begin to cry

I blink, in almost slow motion
As a tear rolls down my face
And for one more millionth time
I wish to leave this place

The trees are bare and empty
Winter is on it's way
The chill always makes me wonder
If I'll ever be okay

I close the shade on my window
And try to hide the moon
I don't want it's light
To shine inside my room

I crawl underneath my covers
And pull them up over my head
I beg to feel some warmth
Rather than feeling dead

Wounds are reopening themselves
As if they've just been made
And as I shut my eyes
I feel reality start to fade

A deep, dark shadow surrounds me
And I'm falling endlessly
This drop goes on for ever
And I'm calling continuously

"Someone! Is anyone out there?
A caring soul to save a girl
One who got lost trying to live
Inside this broken world?!"

All of the sudden, I tremble
And I feel I'm about to scream
But my mind gives me comfort
In knowing it was all a dream

I gently crawl out of bed
Close my door, and grab the knife
No more dreams of falling forever
For tonight I take my life ...