As I Cry

As i cry
I lie awake in bed
all these horrible memories going through my head
I wish that i was dead
If i was dead what would you do
I lay here and tell myself if you only knew
If only you knew what i go through every day
Sometimes i wonder why you stay with me
I guess it was just meant to be
Your the only good thing in my life right now
Everyone else just calls me a freak
Yet that sad attempt at name calling is weak
I’m tired of crying all night long
So I’ll grab that knife
end my life
and go to heaven
singing a sad song

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