My world is black

Lying in my bed,
Razorblade at hand
I shouldn’t do this to myself,
But the pain I just can’t stand

I hold my wrist securely,
As I cut deep into my skin
I fighting battles in my life,
That are impossible to win

My parents won’t stop fighting,
Hurtful words are being said.
My heart is silently screaming
Suicidal thoughts cross my head.

I’m trying to be happy,
In a world that’s full of hate
There’s no more love for one another,
I think its time to meet my fate.

Everyone wonders why I am so sad
They try to make me smile.
I don’t remember the last time I laughed,
I know it’s been a while.

Some just don’t understand me
But I wish they’d only see.
Everyday I try to be happy
But it’s almost impossible for me.

This pain inside is just too strong,
I can’t take it anymore.
I can no longer stand living
Can’t stand being so sore.

No one should even miss me,
No one should even care.
I just happened to be another girl
On this earth we have to share.

All this thoughts are going through my head,
With my razorblade in hand.
I love my parents so dearly
It’s my life I cannot stand.

I slit my throat so deeply,
The blood begins to pour.
My eyes become hazy,
As I drop to the floor.

My mother calls for supper,
I wish I cold answer back,
Tell her how much I loved her
And that my world was just to black.

The skies were always gray,
The sun refused to shine.
I’ll be in a happier place now,
My dark world I’ll leave behind.

I know it will be hard for you mother,
But I know you’ll make it through.
Just remember I’m in heaven,
Where my skies are always blue.