Falling from Grace

I’m falling from grace.
My faith has been tampered with,
My love replaced with loathing.
God has been driven out.
I have no sin for I am Sin.

I cannot speak at meals.
My trust and manners falter.
How can I repent myself?

Do I still carry the infinite love of the Almighty?
Will he show me mercy, or have I used my last favour?
Goodwill to humankind but I have used it wrongly.
Could anyone forgive me?

I have no pleasing quality.
I am no longer worthy.
I cannot tolerate, forgive.
God help me.