A broken heart and a numb... me

My hands are trembling,
As I reach to the flames,
I’m slowly remembering,
All your little games.

And how they broke me down,
Turned my heart to ice,
I’m trying to melt it now,
But the fires won’t suffice.

I’m left cold inside,
All thanks to you,
My soul’s died,
And I’m confused.

Catching the glowing embers in my palms,
Hoping to burn away the scars from my self-harm,
But the fire freezes me,
And seems so black,
Why can’t I feel?
My skin really should crack and peel,
I just want my fire back.

The flames lick at my neck,
And swirl round my feet,
Still leave me with no deflects,
And I can’t feel the heat.

I walk in the twilight,
As the fires follow me,
Though flames light up the night,
The lights – I can’t see.

Your lies made me numb,
And I’m hollow,
I succumbed,
Yes I know.

I should have seen this one, heading my way a mile off,
As I scoop up the flames, and think how I wasted a lot,
But the fire freezes me,
And seems so black,
Why can’t I feel?
My skin really should crack and peel,
I just want my fire back.

You broke my heart, I felt it snap,
You tore it apart, and threw it back,
That’s the second that my hopes all died.
Light turned to dark, now it’s all black,
As you depart, I closed the gap,
Between my body, and my mind.