Because of you

Sat in the bathroom
Full of more hatred in each tear
Waited for something good to appear

Looked up on the counter
And something caught my eye
Thought maybe it was my time to fly

Stood up and grabbed this object
Sat in the dark closet and shut the door
Knew that after this it would hurt no more

Took the thing I was holding
Silently lowered my head
Whispered “I just want to be dead”

Put my arm in front of me
Grabbed the thing that would kill
Started to cut and got a chill

The cut became deeper and deeper
As blood went onto the floor
It wasn’t enough I needed more

Knew I was almost there
Got more dizzy by the second
Would soon be on my way to heaven

My head went black
Collapsed onto the floor
Don’t know what happen next but someone opened the door

When I woke up I was in a bed
The walls were white and the floor was green
Thought what a beautiful scene

Tried to get up
Fell back down
Someone must have seen cause they made a loud sound

Heard foot steps coming nearer
Started to smile and saw god
It wasn’t him just a fraud

Someone grabbed my hand
I looked over to see who it was
Tears started to fill my eyes and I paused

Realized this wasn’t heaven
Just the place I wanted to get away from
Looked away from my palm

Got better after awhile
Went home a couple weeks later
After that my confidence was greater

Sometimes I think about that night
When I tried to stop all the pain
I think now that I must have been insane

I’ll never do it again
It was a juvenile thing to do
But I will never forget the reason, I did it because of you

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