My Unwanted Answered Prayer( Seeing Him Again )

Today I saw him For the first time in months
It was so unexpected, surprising at that
We both started talking right off the bat

It was awkward, we sat in silence for awhile
then I just looked at him trying to hold my smile

I wanted to break down in tears It hurt so bad
I tried to keep a straight face
Not letting him know how I'm really sad

He seemed so happy and seemed as if he didn't miss me at all
Even after those silly promises
you know how he'd catch me if I fall

I asked him how he was doing, he said "I've been doing OK."
I mean just being there with him
Unlike before, I didn't know what to say

I was speechless and about to start crying
For the past months I've been trying to get over him
I really have been trying

Then he said "So, how are you doing?"
I lied and said "Just fine!"
Accept the fact I can't get you out of my mind

But the second I saw him
All those feelings came rushing back like I wished they wouldn't
I talked to him for a couple minutes knowing I probably shouldn't

Those feelings are back
It feels like I'm back in the past
God, sitting here remembering our good times
We really did have a blast

Then I remember why I fell for him
I loved his smile, I loved they way he use to laugh
But then we got ripped apart and my heart torn in half

After, all this time apart I tried to move on
Things seemed better everyday
But there I was sitting in-front of you
Speechless not knowing what to say

I never expected to talk to him again
Nor did I anticipate being face to face
For the first time in months
I got to feel his warmth of embrace

I asked him if he had a girlfriend these days
And he said" Well yeah, you know your not around now-a-days."
Knowing that alone made me want to die
Standing there with him, just wanting to break down and cry

One thing came good of seeing him again
I saw he was happy and that made me glad
As long as he is OK I don't care about the fact I'm sad

But something hit me while standing there
If he had been doing so good these days why should I care

He had moved on
Put us behind
Its so hard to get over him
When your always in my mind

I also told God If I talked to him again the pain would go away
But Boy was I wrong now thinking of him here I lay

I wish God hadn't answered my prayer of seeing him once more
It didn't help things thats for sure

Yeah I miss him and was glad to see him that day
But I just wish these feelings would go away