by ♥-Sharon Ardern-♥   Jan 1, 2005

I’ve come to really hate myself
I look in the mirror and all I see
Is this ugly, disgusting freak
I wish so bad that I wasn’t me

And no matter where I go
I can’t run from how I look
I don’t face the world
I’d rather bury myself in a book

Through all the years of bullying
I was my own best friend
But this past year
That has come to an end

I started to understand
What was always there
What I pushed away
Acting as if I did not care

I let the sticks and stones
Break my bones because it does hurt
When those words are said
When I am treated like dirt

I always tried to convince myself
That beauty lies inside
But what once flourished there
Now seems to have died

And once I was staring at myself
Staring at the ugly creature before me
I slashed a blade across my face
Knowing no man could ever adore me

And sometimes when I cut
It’s me trying to kill the thing inside
This ugliness that sunk in
And if I cut too deep, and I died …

It would be no more than I deserve.

© Copyright Sharon Ardern 2005


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  • 15 years ago

    by BleedingAngel

    It's like you wrote this poem with my words, I know exactly how you are feeling...I hear your pain. Great poem, though it's so sad....

    Hugs Sabrina

  • 16 years ago

    by Mass Murder


  • 16 years ago

    by morbidangel69

    i love this poem, i can relate to it

  • 16 years ago

    by Marta

    wow! that was such a sad, heart-jerking poem! i can't even put into words how good that was, you are an amazing writer, keep on writing hun.

    p.s i've seen a picture of you and i think you're really pretty, please don't forget that!

    love always, marta :) x x x x

  • 16 years ago

    by confusion

    i know i dont know you, but iv always been told there are no ugly people, and i agree with that, different people may be better looking than others, but none ugly. fatastic poem, youve got a great talent.

    keep up the great work and stay strong, lu -x-x-x-