My Fantasy

I thought it was over
when I said goodbye to you
Little did I know
that I would continue loving you

I know I have to let go
and yet I continue to hold on
I wish I could stop being weak
and start being strong

You’re the one person I could trust
and yet in one moment that was gone
A lifetime full of memories
disappeared and I was torn

What I don’t understand
is why I feel this way
Or why I continue to watch you
day by day

What I once thought was love
I know believe is just a crush
And yet I sit here drawing hearts
wanting to feel your touch

I don’t see the point in it
what good has come from love
It feels like a black crow
not a pure white dove

I constantly keep searching
for an answer ill never find
Knowing that the answer that I want
is held within my mind

The only answer I want
is for a question I don’t know
And the only thing I want to do
is to let my feelings show

My mind plays tricks on me
and I imagine you with me
Yet I know this will never happen
because it’s just a fantasy

© ShatteredAngel 2005