Whats to live for?!?!

My mom has been worried.
My sisters don't care.
Only because.
I'm never there.
I don't want to here.
Trapt in this "home".
To only find.
That I'm better off alone.
I see my reflection.
And ask myself.
Wasn't I promised perfection?
Instead I got this.
Nothing but pain.
Inside and out.
It will never stop.
Without a doubt.
I've felt this way for so long.
I don't think I can go on.
I'm screaming inside.
And no one can here me.
No matter how much I bleed.
Its only a couple moments of happiness.
Then when it goes away.
I'm left in my world of madness.
Bleed.
Scream.
Dream.
Real or fake?
Mad or sane?
Blood or tears?
Insane fears.
Heart stained.
Nothing gained.
Left behind.
Fining ways to hide.
Hide from all my pain.
I want to fly away.
With every day.
That passes by.