Numb

When this first started out
Things seemed pretty bad
But I think back on it now
And there were some good things I had

I used to make it seem that
Things were worse than they were
I would say that I'm numb
And that is was my heart that hurt

Then things really started getting worse
And I kept trying to figure out
How it was that I really felt
And I annoyed myself so much I would shout

I couldn't quite put my finger on it
I knew that I was depressed
But that wasn't enough
And thinking about it made me stressed

I felt like I needed to cry
But the tears wouldn't come
So I would cut myself for tears
And that's when I realized I was really numb

I was numb to my own actions
And I was numb to my own thoughts
I couldn't really feel anything
And thats the worst feeling Ive ever got

It was like nothing matters
And nobody was there
But as much as I wanted to
I couldn't care...

..Not that great but I just wrote it.