This is me all that i'll ever be

Yea i did it all over again
I've done something wrong I've filled my heart with one more sin
I guess i just cant be who you want
Or maybe i haven't learned the lessons you've taught

I'm not this perfect girl
My life is full of spins and twirls
My mind is a dark scary place
I cant look myself in the mirror i cant stand that face

I'm always going to make a mistake
This is something your going to have to take
I'm not a happy girl who always smiles
My sadness comes then lasts a while

Maybe its just you don't understand me
Maybe when your looking at me you ignore things you don't want to see
Am i going to lose my trust in you
To me will you stay true?

You say lately i disappoint you too much
Well I'm not so great i know that sucks
But the things i do help me deal
The things i do make me feel real

You don't think that i listen that i don't hear
But its loosing you that i fear
I know you think this is a bunch of crap
But i feel like I've been stabbed in the back

If you cant handle me handle my pain
If you cant handle that my wrist leaves a stain
I guess you and me
Where just not meant to be

My thoughts are choking on you my dear
I know its not something you want to hear
But I'm not even close to perfect
That fake smile just doesn't quite fit

This is me
take what you see
this is me
All that I'll ever be