Depression

My soul is too old
When I'm alone everything seems cold...
When it rains it's like the sky cries
For my heart inside that dies...
I lost a part of me a long time ago
I'm hiding in the shadows of my broken soul
When I wake up, death greets me with "Hello!"
My time will come soon, I know...
I am so confused
I feel I'm being used
What have I become? What's wrong?
Why is the path to inner peace so long?
I have no reason to wake up or go to bed..
My heart still bleeds cause of what you said...
I hide myself behind a mask of pretend
Which is so painful, when will it end?
I look at myself in the mirror and i feel disdain
I close my eyes and I feel the pain
Of not being able to cry
I did that so many times that my eyes are dry...
Too many times I've been down and stepped on
My God, where has my heart gone?