Addicition

Do you know what addiction truly means?
Do you understand how hard it is to get by
when your not high
It feels like theres no end
but everyones says its just around the bend
its so hard to quit
Yet everyone wonders why I'm throwing such a fit
its because i cant think
i want that one last drink
then when thats not enough
i try to be tough
but it just doesn't work
because when you take that drink
and can not think
when someone offers another
you say why not bother
thats when the pills come in
its just one big sin
that i seem to live in
I cant get out
thats not what its all about
after the pills that make me feel ill
I say Ive had enough
I want to quit
but I'm not that tough
i move to the next level
all the pills are gone
and all the alcohol too
whats left for me to do
Ive heard about crack
but after i did that
everyone just seemed to turn their back
but for some reason
I couldn't leave
I couldn't think of a reason
How can this be
why cant they see
i want out
this is not what I'm about
I don't like drugs
but when i do them i feel like everyone giving me hugs
But then they just shrug
and i turn back to the drug
with one big tug
I stick the needle in
i watch the sin go in my skin
it hurts at first
but then all i feel is thirst
I turn around
all of a sudden I'm on the ground
and look what Ive found
another pill
look at me
and what do you see
a pathetic drug addicted me
that needs someone to help me out
so i can see what life is really about
i say i need my space
but really i need to be hit in the face
and for all the drugs to be gone without a trace
i hate addiction
it is so bad
it makes me feel really sad
don't wanna die
so i need to quit feeding into all these lies
i need my life back
without the crack
and i need the hugs without the drugs