Break my heart now

I want to be like her,
So pretty and thin
She gets all the guys
and even got him

I'm always busy,
She's here all the time
It's a wonder he cares,
A miracle he's mine

Her smiles so perfect,
Not broken at all
Her attitudes so happy,
She's important and small

She doesn't get drunk
And stuff up her life
I'm so worthless and stupid,
So over-whelmed with strife

My body a mere mess
From what i have done
I wish i could stop,
There is no need to run

I just want to be normal,
Be good enough too
But the more i look at her
I know she's for you

So break my heart now,
Before i fall even more
Say you don't love me,
And walk out the door

-I guess, it's better knowing something earlier. Even if it breaks your heart.