Her Last Note

It’s been so long
Since I have seen your face
Or felt the comfort
Of your warm embrace

That memory remains
Of that horrible night
When you got in your car
And drove out of my life

Before it happened
We got in an argument
Everything I said
I seriously regret

You got in your car
To go for a little drive
It was to clear your head
No one thought you’d die

You said you’d be back
In a little while
And when you came back
You wanted to see me smile

Hours went by and
You never came back
I thought you went home
And hit the sack

I got up early the next morning
To wait by the phone
But when you did not call me
I thought maybe you didn’t go home

Maybe you were still sleeping
I tried calling you at home
I started getting worried because
No one answered the phone

Later that night, almost ten o’clock
I was woken up by a ringing phone
It was your mom calling to tell me
When you left, you never made it home

You were driving way too fast
The road was too dark to see
You let your anger take control
Your anger was caused by me

You completely missed a turn
People could hear the tires slide
You could not get any control
And went over a the hillside

I stayed in my room and cried
The day your funeral came
I couldn’t get up the guts to go
I cried all day, I felt so ashamed

I knew I was the one
Who caused your painful death
Oh, if only I could hear you
Breathe one more last breath

The long days went past
And turned into weeks
I hardly left my room
I would not even try to eat

Everyone tried talking to me
To get me to understand
But I don’t want to
I miss my love, my best friend

I crawled in my bed but
I can't sleep as hard as I tried
I can't quit thinking about it
All I can do was lay here and cry

I can’t do it anymore
I miss you so more than anything
There is only one thing to do
I know no one will understand me

I stare at your pictures and grab a knife
I take the knife and start to cut
I’m scared to die, but I miss you
I want to be with you so bad, but…

This was a poem written by a friend of mine before she killed herself…