A strangers Face

I look in the mirror
Who do I see
A strangers face
Staring back at me

I turn in the mirror
And do not recognize
Anything about me
Except the sadness in my eyes

I see the hurt
And the pain
I see anger
In which I’ve gained

I do not realize
All that I have cost
Myself most off all
Because it’s me I’ve lost

I lost who I was
I lost who I am
I lost the sparkle in my eyes
That was my best part… damn

I wish that I had
One more chance to get it back
But it takes courage
In which is something that I lack

I suppose I could give it a try
To make a better me
But what if I fall
Then what would I be

The disgrace that I am
And all I’ll ever be
To all those around
Especially me

So why even try
I’m just a stupid girl
My life is spinning downward
In an awkward sort of twirl

So lets just end this now
God take me in my sleep
Give mommy a kiss for me
And the locket that I keep

Tell her that I’ll miss her
But I’ll see her sometime soon
Tell her when she misses me
To glance up at the moon

I will be here waiting
For her to come and see
Everything I wanted her
To really know about me