To You

It gets harder and harder everyday
The thoughts of you are too strong
So many things I’m dying to say
Not knowing if they are right or wrong

How can you live your life
So happily and free
Don’t bother saying you care
Because you don’t give a fcuk about me

I never once thought of believing
Everything bad they had to say
But…now I see they were right
And I hate you more each day

Your words don’t mean anything
So please, spare me the lies
Cause your actions show me nothing
No more hurt will cry from these eyes

I convinced myself you cared
But after thirteen years I should have known
You don’t luv me, you never did
I guess I’m better off on my own

I only asked you for little things
But you always forgot
I’m ignored, forgotten and hurt
And I won’t pretend I’m not!

You could of done things differently
But you did what was best for you
You didn’t care how it would affect me
And now I’m left here to construe

I looked up to you my whole life
But...there was nothing to look up to
You were supposed to be my big sis
But you never loved me, the way I loved you

*Shannon*:'(