Behind Her Eyes

A soul so quiet and delicate,
you wouldn't expect a single disappointment,
a feeling of worry and sympathy,
no, this girl, this soul, inspired.
Someone seeming so capable,
so bright and charming,
never has any worries, she's capable,
she knows just what she's doing.

This girl, this story told in her eyes,
leaves a trail, behind them,
leading you down into the darkness of her spirit,
people wouldn't realize how lost she is.
She smiles and keeps her head high,
not wanting to reveal her secrets,
or show the pain and fear that she holds,
trapped in her heart, broken.

"I'm so proud of you, you will do so well",
her parents and teachers say,
pressurizing her, making her feel she has to,
not wanting to have people think less of her.
Where to go? Who to talk to?
this fragile child, in a teenagers body,
so scared, needing guidance, but no path to follow,
no hand to pull her to the surface.

This is not who she wants to be,
this isn't the little girl who was happy,
determined and confident, feeling free,
this Gothic lullaby chants to her.
No hope, no faith, nothing out there,
stay inside, don't wander and discover,
her eyes fill with tears and misery,
releasing what is hidden behind them.

Her memories comfort her, the fond times,
they gesture her to realize,
is she really alone? can any one save her?
she travels on, blinded by hate.
The wind, the rain, it feels so real,
this is no game, it's reality,
it's not carved in stone yet, but on her wrist,
this is reality, cold and fearful.

People don't see her, she is still unknown,
time slowly fades as she falls, she's being torn away,
she is too scared to love, she is so confused,
she doesn't want to hurt or be hurt....goodbye.
A story never told, a story hidden away,
no one ever imagined, they just dismissed,
this girl is slowly fading, breaking away,
but she continues to hide it all, behind her eyes.

© Gurdy x (GoddessOfWings)