They Locked Me Up, A Year Ago Today -True Story-

It was exactly a year ago, today
The car came and took me away
Riding across the country to somewhere
That would lock me up and keep me there

After 13 days of starving myself
'A serious deterioration in her mental health'
They decided a mental hospital was the best place
Did they not see the panic in my face?

As the hospital came in to view
Big and haunting there was nothing I could do
Only except that they had me now for good
And I wished, wished that they understood …

I wasn't crazy, no, I was completely sane …
I was just finding ways to control the pain
No food for a body that wants to die
No liquid for a body that won't cease to cry

Scars up and down my arms, soon to grow …
Hospital would make me worse, they didn't know
But I did, and I was right all along
The scars just kept piling on

I discovered new ways to cut, I started to burn …
I would run from the hospital, always to return
In a police car, screaming to be free
Did they not know, what this was doing to me?

Yes it was a year ago …
And I look back to wonder if they know …
It’s all starting again … I won't eat, can't sleep …
And I ache to push this blade in, far too deep …

© Copyright Sharon Ardern 2005